Imaginary Sails - the weird feeling of being a work at home mom.

Weird (non) Work Days

It’s been a weird day. I feel like I was just getting back into the swing of working when I stopped working – and by working I am referring to my paying job. I was acutely aware all day today that I should have been at work, even though I shouldn’t have been. I have taken a step back to casual from two days each week after a month back from maternity leave. I made this choice for lots of reasons but essentially childcare (or lack of) and barely bringing anything home when it was all said and done were the major factors. If I’m barely making anything doing something I am less than passionate about – I’d rather find ways to mostly be a work-at-home-mom for now, especially with all the changes in our lives lately including my hubby Bryn now being self-employed which means an all over the map and fairly unpredictable schedule.

Our work lives have changed drastically in the past couple of months not to mention all the work our energetic little bundle takes as well!

It feels like I’ve had a job forever, which isn’t quite accurate but very close to at least half my life so far, and definitely all of my adult life… so while technically I am still a casual employee all that means is I will work the odd day if I can when (and if) they call. I’m a bit worried about this new chapter.

Here’s why:

  • I’m not a routine person.
  • I am not a creature of habit or structure (in most ways).
  • I would like to think what money I do (or don’t) make doesn’t define me or give me value – but I am freaking out a little inside (and now publicly) about the fact that I will not be bringing in much (for now).
  • I am a master procrastinator, which equals me being adequate but maybe more often than not sub par in the all things domestic department.

 

Weird Work Days - Back to work then back home again after mat leave - my plan to get more organized in this unstructured life. (more…)

Incomplete Sentences – By Products of Mom Brain

I just need to know – are there any Moms out there who have ever successfully had a full conversation with a new (or old) Mommy friend?! If so – how? I can’t even count the number of times I’ve thought back on an interaction and wondered ‘did I do all the talking?’ ‘What did I say?!’ ‘Did I ask them about themselves?!’ ‘What did they say?!’  … Where am I? Where’s the coffee?!…

I had our son about a year after moving to a new place – not super far from where we lived before – but a ferry ride away. This means it’s a whole different ball game to visit my friends, we can’t just quickly meet up for coffee or grab a bite like we used to. Not to mention that just a few of  my friends have kids as well which can change things a little too. So obviously I would like to get to know more people in the area but there are just a few obstacles I’ve noticed…

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